Thursday 8 March 2012


bloggie ,你好吗 ?
多天没找你, 对不起 。
最近太忙读书了 ,
因为考试嘛 。

你知道吗 ?
我越来越多烦恼了 。
一个个的朋友离我远了 。
他们都是老朋友 。
你知道我在说谁吗?
我在说‘他’ 。 一个男子 。

actually I miss you so badly .
I miss our memories :'D
do you still remember how sweet we're ?
i dont know how are you now .
nevermind .

even though I miss you so badly ,
but , doesn't mean i want you back in
my life . missing you is just a part
of moving on .
you're just a chapter in the past of
my life .

you're so much better without me .
I'm not deserve to have you .
still lots of things you do not know and you will never know .
you never listen my explanation ,
you just give me a stupid punishment .
and I won't forget that punishment .


I promise .
I haven't and won't forget any of our memories .
actually , I haven't given up hope .
but , I knew no matter how long im waiting for you ,
you'll never back for me . (maybe)
I have to try to move on and try accept that this is
the end of what we had .
I moved on after valentine's day ,
and I've removed you from my Close Friend .
so I will not see your daily activities on facebook .

有些话 , 不用说 ,也明白了 。
必须要我讲真心话你才知道吗 ?
知道你不了解我 ,无所谓 。
我还是依然的爱你 ,
依然关心你 ,
也依然想你 。
有时候 ,说声‘不想了不想了’ 也没那么容易 。
自己最明白自己的心情了 。
看到你好象是喜欢上了另一个‘她’ ,
其实无所谓的 , 我没心痛 。
但我希望‘她’会是一个好孩子 。
不然 ,你会弄我哭到很 badly 。
因为我不想看到你会为第二次的恋爱而哭泣 。
我不想我不想看到 !
爱你很深 , 很深 。难以忘 。
回到过去的时候 ,
才发现 nothing special .
也感觉到 , 我变了很多 。

tomorrow is last exam liao ,
i hope i can pass all subject la .
then , Tasawwur you better kill me tonight la .
im not ready to answer your stupid questions tomorrow :'D

bloggie , good night then .
will find you next time :D






Monday 5 March 2012

hello !!!
tomorrow exam already ,
yerr , ready liao ka kamu ? me not yet oh =='
by the way , good luck k :D
do your best .

see , sweet kan my bestie -Langga Sinting .
macam itu anjing nhe sweet dea , aits :P
tyme Tasawwur Islam ba nhe , sy tengah semangat belajar
dea sana mengacau box pensel sy.
entah apa tuh dea tulis di buku sy ,
dea cakap sampai rumah baru boleh baca .
tapi , sampai kereta ja terus sy baca . apa ku kesah  --'
tapi sweet yawW , senyum2 sy dalam kereta .
aits . persahabatan paling anjing dalam dunia , sweet kan ?
my handkerchief tuh slalu d'guna oleh dea yaw ,
sy bawa dea yg pkai . HAHA !
kamu adaaa :P
she said ::
"'' I love you , you love me :3 we are happy family<3 cycy nyomel like monkey . hahaha :)
naa , merepek suda ak . boring oh :'( ak rindu lokyuk ba ,
haih , hmp . jangan kau buang ne kertas aa cy .
jangan buka juga . bikin kenangan . HAHAHA ! :D
cy , ak syg kau ba ne , tpi kau bikin panas ba slalu mcm taik ayam ! kau tau ka ? hahaha .
nda ba , itu cuma testing :)
saja2 ja nhe merepek sbab mao kc
full jak .kla bai tc muah di pantat <3  ''"

actually , seapa bilang im not loving you oh ?
i lebbiu ba budu .
tpi gaya kao sial ba , patah seribu hatiKU .
naaa ! seapa nda skit bila kao ckap ::
'' ba p la kao sna , aq cri bestie aq si era . ''
gara2 aq nda dengar ckap kao setja baa .
pena kao nda dengar ckap aq ,
trus aq ckap ::
'' nda apa , aq cri bestie aq si naja ''
pena ? bhurr . HAHA .
sial la kao , tpi sy syg kao juga baa :P

next .
my brother said I got panda eyes already .
make-up also can't make my panda eyes hilang oh .

delayed sleep .
and my mother also said that my face increasingly ugly liao .
hohoho . ok then ~


see , his handkerchief .
wangi ! wangi taman bunga .
wangi than mine .
my handkerchief nda sewangi dea punya ,
tapi baju saya wangi drp dea xP
OREO :D
my favourite .
thanks mamy <3
(like a sopo , picture like this also want take =.=')

naaa , like a lou sai .
HAHAHA !
siok sendiri buuu :D



Saturday 3 March 2012


hello bloggie ,
I come and meet you again .
I miss you :D
i wanna tell you something , dear .
when i woke up ,
im crying :'(
because , i miss him so badly .
i remembered our memories ,
and the way he love me , treat me
and never ignore me even though he was busy .
and i miss the way he be honest with me even though its hurt .
i still remember he said with me like this :
'' B , I give you my password la . I want our
relationship without secret . and i wont
delete all my inbox . but you also should do the same thing like me k ?''
and i wanna tell you something about him ,
but i knw i shouldn't tell you here ,
this is my secret .
sorry bloggie .
but i don't know i should tell who if i nobody understand me .
if you bloggie , i can share with you how i feel .
i feel better after i share with you my problem .
but if i share with my friend ,
sometimes they're not really understand me .
i don't know I should tell who lagi .

okay  then .
here I wanna share my friend -sandra's wedding photo .
congratulations , dear :D

 so sweet right ? even very young indeed .


the bride . pretty oh :D

the groom , his smile is very sweet :)

I hope their marriage will be  forever ,
love each other forever ,
happy forever <3

next :D








semalam I ate my favourite grapes , eh enjoy oh .
solo2 ba

and my daddy , mother , aunty , brother .
berabut baaa watermelon .
hahahaha .
watermelon in chinese is ''WO DE MEI REN''(my beauty girl)

alaaa i forgot take gambar jambu baa ,
my brother -yang2 berabis busss ate jambu yesterday .
amoi banyak kalah2 itu pasir .
HAHA !
well , enjoy la yesterday with my family .
show our new hp ,
waaa .
but yesterday my sister not join us oh .
she dating with her laptop baa ,
skype with her new boyfiee , maybe .  HAHAH !
opps , sorry joan . wo ai ni <3


that day my father asked me ,
'' zu mai ngi geh fan an shao oh ? ngi diet he meh ? diet meh an nyong .
sit fan moi an shau , zuo yun dong ru guo ngi oi diet . sapo . ''
(contonesse mix chinese mix hakka)
(means is kenapa nasi kau begitu sikit ? diet ka ?
kalau mau diet bukan begitu , tapi banyak sukan kalau mao diet . sapo )
and my brother also asked me the same question  ,
he asked why my body thin liao ?
hahaharr ,
then , when i take my rice ,
my aunty was shock !
she asked me ,
'' diet bu shi jiang zhi woh Jia Yii . fan jiang shao ? cat's rice meh . ''
HAHA !
when I woke up today ,
my mother also said the same word to me ,
she said my body thin liao .
thin meh ?
looked like a feipo (fat girl) liao lurr .
yeah , i feel my body still same ba .
where got thin .
my family's eyes blind or got any problem  liao shi bu shi ?
buuu , i dont know la .
but be honest la ,
after i break up with him ,
i take my rice so sikit liao .
sikitt la .
can u imagine ?
haharr .
well , i dont like eat so many rice ba .
bikin gemuk .
and to my cousin- joan,
yesterday brother said with me that you
died liao kan ?
till dont wanna eat kan ?
duu , dont like that la .
i teach you la ,
dont eat so many rice .
just eat vegetables(eat more) ,
dont eat so many meat .
kurangkan makanan berminyak ,
and drink more milk .
aits ! diet diet pun , diet la .
but , must eat k !
dont diet till gastrik ah .
i slap your face ohh :P
and now , you're becoming a beauty girl liao lurr .
brother tell mom that you like to makeup when you hangout with your friend .
hahaharr , i like :D
then next time i got a new partner to make up liao .
not solo2 liao :D

today look
hish !
im so sad .
i dont know he spend his time for who .
when he reply my text ,
just a short word , and always late .
i dont know why .
im sorry now i think negative liao .
i think that he got a new scandal ?
or he still text his ex ?
i dont know .
i try my best to dont think too much ,
but i can't  .
every night we on the phone ,
talk together 'till morning .
but now , haih .
when i wait he 'till 12am ,
then suddenly he said he wanna sleep early .
i was so sad , i wait him till 12am oh .
then suddenly he said wanna sleep ?
waaa , ni dan wo shi sapo ah ?
and when we sms ,
he said wanna sleep early because tomorrow he wanna
help his mother .
but today he send a morning text to me ,
then i asked him  '' just woke up ? ''
he said yes and its really make me disapointed !
10 am is early meh ?
7am baru early maa .
i dont know la .
i really dont know what are you thinking right now .
if you got scandal , or you got any problem ,
or you don't love me like yesterday ,
then please tell me the truth .
because i dont like the way i treat myself like this .
you don't ever know what i want .
sometimes i feel that its no fair .the way you treated me with your ex is too different .
its not fair dear .
but nevermind .
im understand .
its okay .
i have to say ,
this is the reason why i cn't love you like i love my ex .
now ,
i feel im too tired and too lazy be with you ,
you never try to understand what i want .
im too lazy text and calling with you .
i hope you dont disturb me after this .
i force myself to treat you now .
i hope you can stop loving me .
because from now i'll stop loving you .




Tuesday 28 February 2012




I wanna buy this American Clothes .
waaa , Im fallin' love with this clothes oh .
nice rite ?

Imma be like bom bom powww !

Saturday 25 February 2012

Sorry , I forgot . You don't need me anymore :'D


hello my lovely boggie ,
I come and meet you agian .
got a few days didn't find you , chat :D

blog ?
I got so many problems .
haih .

Im so sad when Langga use Era's phone
then she send a text ''ak benci kau''
to me .
even thought she just kidding ,
but she really really really make
my heart broken , hurts .
why ?
you look like wanna ''uji'' me baa .
I trust you , and I treat you like my best friend .
but now look ain't :'(
you knows ,
so please , Im open minded , but Im sensitive .
sorry :(

exam is coming :(
oh my ghost !
this 6March exam liao lurr ,
not fair lur , so fast !
exam bab 1-2 only ,
takut essay baaaaa .
must study hard la this .

then ,
i wanna say ,
nothing special in my life .
yeah :(

bloggie , me always annoy you and tell you nonsense .
But if i don't tell you i don't know i should tell who ?
here I wanna ask you , boggie ?
how to be strong ?
how to be don't so care ?
sorry my pillow :'(
I can't ! I really really can't !
when I remembered the things that annoyed me ,
I can't stop to crying , to madly and don't think too much .
sometimes crying can make me feel better ,
my pillow always wet , hahaharr :)
sometimes feel like crying for no reason also good baa , haha .

last night on the phone with my old friend ,
I tell him the truth , I tell him how I feel .
I wanna cry that time , but I don't
want he know that I still care too much
and think too much .
and suddenly he crying when I share my feeling with him .
sometimes he's my good listener , yeah :)
but sometimes not :(

Im so regret what I did ,
now i realize that Im so stupid girl .
I should not make decisions without thinking carefully ,
see ! now Im so regret :(
nevermind laaa :(
I just wanna say with God ,
thanks God !
to write a romantic story for me .
so God ,
let other friend treat he well ,
he so lonely boy ,
and nobody cares about him ,
I hope got somebody to care and make he more happy .
I really really wish the best for him .
 Im sorry what I did to you before this :(
but I just want do something the best for us ,
but never knew this will happened with us .
I know you hate me , yeah !
I know you still can't pardon me .
I know you need a little time .
but please , you s never knew the truth ,
thing you never knew , dear :(
I wish you knew , but you'd never understand .
it's okay , I don't mind .
I can see now you're really happy to be with yourself .
to be forever alone , without me to take care of you .
to make you laughing and hangouts with you .
I also can feel now that you're not thinking of me ,
caring about me , and don't want see my ''face liar''
i know !
till now I still consider you're my friend .
even you hate me :(
still remember the first time you meet me and said ''hello'' with me ?
still remember how sweet we intro ourselves each other ?
no shy to intro ourselves , and we make a new friendship .
so sweet that time . but now ? hell yeah :(
I still remember the first time we hangouts together ,
go watching breakin' down together ,
and that song really2 make me feel that Im fall in love (in dreams) haha .
for a thousand year (song) aiseh !
I feel so better and feel so open minded when talking and laughing with you .
I like your friendly and open minded attitude .

okay ,
stop talking about you .
i know you don't like .
listen ! I still read our chatting .
and sometimes it make me laughing and sometimes
it make me feel sad .
but I still have to say , thanks !
to teach me how to be a stronger now  .
you let me crying so badly when i leave you and you'll
never come back for me .
you make me feel that nobody will friend , love and
care me like you do .
you're the best , even sometimes you're very show off one .
HAHA .
thanks :)

I wish nobody can love you
like I do .
nobody can wait you so long
like I do .
nobody can treat you well when you sick
like I do .
and i wish , you'll never meet someone who hurt you
so deep like I do .
deeply :D

I know you never come back for me ,
but I still waiting .
waiting for make a new friendship and
forgt all about ''our bad memories'' .
God bless you .

Tuesday 21 February 2012

I will fall for a boy who will

       I will fall for a boy who will :
  • honesty and open-minded .
  • not control me .
  • friendly
  • understanding
  • be with me .
  • not to be egoist
  • respecting
  • stand out in the rain with me .
  • cook with , or for me .
  • take care of me .
  • send text 'good morning'' and ''good night'' everyday <3
  • sing for me .
  • study with me :)
  • keep surprising me .
  • watch movies with me on lazy days .
  • remember the little things .
  • help me face my fears .
  • start play-fights with me -  pillow , water , or anything .
  • take picture with me when I'm bored .
  • not childish .
  • always say what's on his mind .
  • let me wear his clothes .
  • shut me up with kisses .
  • call me things like baby , babe not honey or darling (euw!)
  • hug me and say ''no , you're not'' , when I say I'm fine .
  • treat me sometimes like a child @ as an adult .
  • treat me well .
  • love me back .
  • shopping with me 
  •  play pool with me

why does it always happened to me ?


The worst feeling is when you trust that someone you love so much ,
and yet you have to hear from another person for the  truth .
being decieved by the person love ,
is like a knife piercing through your heart .

you struggled so hard not to cry ,
telling everyone that you're okay .
but when you're alone ,
you can't help it and cry in the
darkness at a corner
in your room .
asking yourself ,
''why does it always happened to me?''

Friday 17 February 2012


haih !
what's goin' on ?
my bestie (shila) emo emo oh .
I don't know how to pujuk her :'(

都是你 !patpo !
你认为你很聪明啦 ?
然后你要讲我的朋友进
我那一班是笨蛋班啦 ?
你有没有想过 你那样 post
会伤到很多人的心 ?
我知道你很聪明 ,
但是如果你够聪明
你应该进第一班的 ,
而不是你现在的班 。

你知道我的朋友为你而哭吗 ?
至少我们精力了 。
何况我们进的又不是
笨蛋班 , 也不是最后一班 。
我们进的是 business 班啊 ,
又不是进 muzik or psv 班 ,
虽然我们进不到 biology 班 ,
但是至少我们成功
进到 business 班 啊 !
我们已经够满足了
能进那一班 。

我知道你说的是我的朋友 。
但是你那样 post 会让我也感觉到很伤心 。

我的朋友更本就没有把你忘掉 。
她也有对你打招呼啊 ,
又不是不理你 。
我知道你吃醋看到我们两
的友情越来越甜蜜 。
我们很 friendly !
you talk bad about me and shiela ,
said my friend ''ugly'' .
but please !
看看你自己先吧 。

我真的很没有心情要理这么多的事了 。
你不累讲人家的坏话吗 ?
你不累但是听的人很累 OK ????
为什么你那么不懂事 ?
为什么你就不可以做 friendly 一点 ?
你知道为什么那么多
人不喜欢跟你做朋友吗 ?
那是因为你的嘴巴太臭了!
喜欢讲人家的坏话 ,
喜欢在朋友后面出卖朋友 。
你不累吗小姐 ?
我们很累 OK !

不要以为自己很聪明 ,
很伟大 , 很善良 ,
很美 很可爱 很性感 !
其实你不是 !
就算你长的美但是如果你的个性
很不善 , 很不 OK 也并不表示什么啊 !
只表示你是一个很卑鄙无耻的人!

我的确没你那么本领 ,
但是 我比得上你的还更多 !
我多朋友 ,
多人关心 ,
友善 , 又时时刻刻在
帮需要我的人 。
你呢 ? 你自己想啦 !

请你不要再讲我朋友的坏话好吗 ?
也请你不要再讲任何人的坏话 ,
可以吗?

想想下吧 ,
每个人都有落点 :'(

Tuesday 14 February 2012


Hello :)
What a great day ,
I wonder what is today .
HAHA !
Valentine's Day <3
Happy Valentine's Day to
all my friend , my ex ,
and my family .

even though I'm single this year ,
doesn't mean I'm sad
or I'm alone .
at least there's still you , my friend ;)
I Love You .
thanks because always take care of me ,
always by my side when I need you ,
and make me laugh ,
make me feel that I'm not alone ;)
 especially Resmah , my good listener ;)
we share each other - ayien :)
and blablabla .
thanks !

my first wisher is
Myrul Shau :)
second is Randy Chong .
third Resmah ,
then Clement :)
12.00 AM
i text Myrul , Randy , Kit ,
Clement , and Resmah
''Happy Valentine's Day'' .
and all of them reply my text ,
except Kit .
oh nevermind aah ,
it's ok .
I'm understand and I don't mind :)

well ,
maybe this year is ''bad year'' laa .
because
I have cried several times at the beginning of the month :'(
I'm tired .
but it's ok .

forever alone , yeah BEST !
but , sometimes girl is need somebody to love :'(
need somebody to care ,
and need somebody to coquetry .
14 January , I'm single .
14 February , 1 month liao loh Im single :)

I promise to myself ,
I won't accept other guy liao .

I'm fall in love with ''books''
this year celebrate with ''books'' .
''books'' is my boyfriend .
HAHA !

so , I'm done !
no valentine's day for this year .

boy ?
like I said ,
no one can love you like I do :)

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY !

( Nevermind , I'll find someone like you . )
( written by Resmah and Me =)

Monday 13 February 2012


what's up !
what a nice day :)
today , shila and me betul2 like a sapo oh , HAHA !
we laugh , we talk bad about someone ,
we share each other , we plan together ,
and so many laaaaa .
HAHAHAH !


exam is coming !
uhh :'(
what the hell ?

well ,
I'm excited for tomorrow .

haih , 
nothing special la today .
emo emo , sad sad ,
happy happy and simple ~
bu nice day :/

bye :)